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This is a collection of stories and daily musings.

  • When your friends become consumables

    After spending a lot of time on social media, watching families’, friends’, and acquaintances’ days unfold through their stories, reels, and posts, I realized I hadn’t actually spoken to them in deep conversations or even casual catch-ups. I know some snapshots about their lives, but I am not sure if I really know them at Read more


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  • The internet never forgets, but should we?

    I have already written 1,393 blog posts here and for sure, there are things that I have said that do not resonate with me anymore or even represent who I am today. But if I erase those ideas that I no longer hold, am I erasing a truth about who I was? Or am I Read more


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  • We already paid for this

    I was sorting through our hospital discharge papers when another patient’s family member leaned over. “You know you can ask the congressman for help, right? On top of the government assistance you can process there,” while pointing to a well-known healthcare assistance program in the country. That’s when it hit me: we’re all just one Read more


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  • They call it trust. They call it faith. They call it acceptance.

    How can you know you’re being exploited if you belong to a system that keeps you from asking deep questions—a system designed to prevent you from knowing you are in one? When naive trust, blind faith, and uncritical acceptance are all that’s expected of you, how do you even begin to see clearly? While catching Read more


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  • The week I became a snot in the nose (and learned to let go)

    When you do things against your will, more likely working on things you never want to be part of, you end up grumbling and muttering under your breath, your mouth conjuring every complaint it can find. And the more you resist, the heavier the weight of the task becomes, even when it’s as easy as Read more


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  • When the waiting felt like a punishment

    When I was preparing for an academic admission application, there were many things I needed to prepare and provide. While some only required hours to fulfill, others needed days. And if I hadn’t anticipated surprises, I might have missed the deadline altogether because some items took about four months to finish, specifically the ones that Read more


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  • Late-night musings #30

    We can’t be certain what the future would be for each of us because like in regression analysis, there’s always this there’s always this error term—that unexplained variance, the residual that you can’t quantify beforehand like you do with your variables. It’s built into the model itself, an acknowledgment that not everything fits neatly into Read more


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