I was sure that with careful planning and preparing for contingencies, my life would unfold the way I wanted them to.
But here I am, almost three decades in, feeling everything I wanted to happen for this timeline seemed out of my control.
Yes. It seems to me that I am missing some of the things I wanted the most.
However, there are other things that I celebrate too. Such that I am writing this at the moment of my life where I can sustain myself, so that’s growth, sure.
A good one.
But sustaining oneself alone is lonely, don’t you think?
And that as you grow up, you seem to notice how it would be nice to be in a home with a family you’re building with your spouse.
Yet, it seems that everything good comes with a cost. And not just mental and physical preparation but money. Lots of money.
But then I wonder. If these thoughts run through my head at age thirty, how much more with those who are still single at age forty? Fifty?
Perhaps, to be content is what one should acquire to temper the frustrations of unmet timelines.
Because, in the end, it’s not really about ticking off boxes.
Life is also about making the most of what’s given to you and uplifting others too. Because we don’t live only for ourselves, do we?
jessa 