Sometimes, I can’t believe I am already 30. This age seems like a dream, something I used to long for even before I truly understood what growing up means—I just want to be old and have autonomy over my life (freeeedom!!!).
But getting to 30 was a process—facing giants along the way—making me realize that I wouldn’t be here writing these words if not by the grace of God, which also meant that I have to trust His ways even when conventional wisdom says otherwise.
The Bible is filled with men and women who were dynamic, head-strong, timid, impulsive, hesitant, and–at times–anything but compliant. The metaphorical, circumstantial, and literal giants in the Bible were not often slain by those who shrunk back in historical shame. The giants in the Bible were vanquished by the people who were willing to trust God, even when all conventional wisdom screamed, “Wear Saul’s armor!”
from Coffee, the World, and Jesus But Not Necessarily In That Order
Time and again, God’s plans never failed me, although I must tell you the process wasn’t as chill as walking in a park. I even have to ask Him to create in me a willing heart to trust Him, which He always does, as it says in Matthew 7:7-8:
Matthew 7:7-8 NIV
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
Right now, I am facing a giant of uncertainty. It is so overwhelming that I wonder if there’s hope for me next year. But turning 30 taught me that the Lord has laid out His plans for my life and that all I need to do is trust that He cares for me and be alert and ready when He opens doors of opportunity for me.
I can hear the bells ringing from 2025, sounding the trumpet of endless possibilities. What would I become before turning 31? But then again, our present selves have a role in preparing for opportunities and growth and becoming the future selves we long for.
Here’s to wrapping up 2024 with a purpose. ✨
jessa 